Monday, March 2, 2009
March 2, 2009 More Randomness
It has been quite a few days since I have written here. Somedays I haven't enough to say to write or it's too personal to share with the world. I have to have a private outlet as well! Honestly this is my passion, writing but sometimes I lose my fire! I know it happens to all of us who enjoy writing but I don't want it to be lost forever! It almost seems an obsession so I doubt if that'll happen! Been listening to a lot of RnB and soul music but I need to give my alternative side some time also so gonna switch gears and get that rock, alternative sound going! Nothing like some Auto Rock by Mogwai to get the heart pumping! I can just close my eyes and imagine a scene of my life that would go great with this song or better yet a scene I am waiting to create with someone very special to me. Music and writing are my solace!
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
February 25, 2009 It's Hump Day!
Wednesday again, the middle of the week that makes it all downhill after today. Some of us live for the weekend, while others are just grateful to live. I use to be one of those who lived for the weekend but after seeing that there is no specific age when death chooses to visit you, I realized I need to live for everyday and be grateful for all those days, moments, hours and seconds! Tomorrow is not promised so I am grateful for every moment that God has blessed me with!
Monday, February 23, 2009
February 23, 2009 Randomness
Obviously I believe in Love. Have since the reality of it became clear. It was first learned from my Parents and other family members. Grew up and learned it was possible to feel that way about someone of the opposite sex. Yet at that early age I wasn't quite sure of all its capabilities. Just being a teenager was confusing enough and then to add emotions for the opposite sex just made it more complicated. Emotions ran high during those times and you weren't always so certain of your feelings. Time passes and you began to have more experiences that either give you a better understanding of loving the opposite sex or possibly confusing you more. No matter how many of these experiences I have had, it never caused me to stop believing in love and all its wonderful possibilities. Of course there were times I became quite frustrated with love but there was always this one part of me that wouldn't stop believing no matter how disappointed I became. I guess in many ways I am a romantic and will always believe in the endless possibilities of when two souls who have searched for one another finally unite. That it will be the ultimate experience of what love has to offer between the opposite sex.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
February 18, 2009 It Is What It Is
Rain can be a romantic thing but not so romantic when u have to travel in it or work in it. It's gonna still fall because the earth needs it and it is what it is! I enjoy being in the rain in the summer months when it's hot outside.and it cools things off. Although it maybe for only a little bit, it can be quite cleansing and refreshing. Sometimes it's wonderful to be nurtured by Earth.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
February 14, 2009 Happy Valentine's Day!!
I am a strong believer in Love.
No matter how many times my heart has been broken or disappointed, I still believe.
I believe there is a person out there who completes me, who is my soulmate and who I can give my everything to.
In many ways I believe I have found him but that we haven't quite come into our time.
As much as I have tried to deny what my heart feels, it doesn't go away and no other will do.
I possess a lot of patience and I am willing to wait for things to come as they are meant to be.
It may seem as if that isn't possible but I believe that we are not designed to live life alone and we cannot let our past disappointments and heartaches cloud our true desire to love and be loved. I still believe in love and will keep my heart open to all its many possibilities no matter what.
God is love and so am I!
No matter how many times my heart has been broken or disappointed, I still believe.
I believe there is a person out there who completes me, who is my soulmate and who I can give my everything to.
In many ways I believe I have found him but that we haven't quite come into our time.
As much as I have tried to deny what my heart feels, it doesn't go away and no other will do.
I possess a lot of patience and I am willing to wait for things to come as they are meant to be.
It may seem as if that isn't possible but I believe that we are not designed to live life alone and we cannot let our past disappointments and heartaches cloud our true desire to love and be loved. I still believe in love and will keep my heart open to all its many possibilities no matter what.
God is love and so am I!
Thursday, February 12, 2009
February 12, 2009 My Sound Of Music
The sound of music is like making love.
It can start as a slow grind and as the tempo changes the movements adjust to the flow.
Slow and easy or fast and hard.
Depends on your preference and how far you wanna take it.
Music gives me butterflies and causes my heart to beat faster!
Sweat running down the small of my back as the melody fills my ears and my hips sway to the rhythm that fills the room.
I become lost in its mesmerizing effects before finally drifting off into a deep slumber.
It can start as a slow grind and as the tempo changes the movements adjust to the flow.
Slow and easy or fast and hard.
Depends on your preference and how far you wanna take it.
Music gives me butterflies and causes my heart to beat faster!
Sweat running down the small of my back as the melody fills my ears and my hips sway to the rhythm that fills the room.
I become lost in its mesmerizing effects before finally drifting off into a deep slumber.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
February 11, 2009 The Reality of Possibility
In life sometimes I take a step back and review.
The things that I want or desire aren't always what I need.
But somehow I've convinced myself that I do need it and get caught up trying to obtain it.
The reality of the possibility of me accomplishing it hardly ever succeeds but I digress.
You can't control people and their actions.
You can't make someone like, love or be with you no matter how much you have tried to prove that you desire that with them.
Sometimes it's just better to walk away because if it's meant for you to have, it'll usually come to you.
You shouldn't have to subject yourself to any out of character acts to win someone over.
Love is not designed that way.
It is simple, uncomplicated, and nurturing.
It's just that we as people sometimes complicate what isn't meant to be complicated.
The things that I want or desire aren't always what I need.
But somehow I've convinced myself that I do need it and get caught up trying to obtain it.
The reality of the possibility of me accomplishing it hardly ever succeeds but I digress.
You can't control people and their actions.
You can't make someone like, love or be with you no matter how much you have tried to prove that you desire that with them.
Sometimes it's just better to walk away because if it's meant for you to have, it'll usually come to you.
You shouldn't have to subject yourself to any out of character acts to win someone over.
Love is not designed that way.
It is simple, uncomplicated, and nurturing.
It's just that we as people sometimes complicate what isn't meant to be complicated.
Monday, February 9, 2009
February 9, 2009-House Soul Cleaning
Have you ever had things that took up space in your house but were no longer serving a purpose?
Does your soul carry such a habit as well?
Friendships that are no longer a help but a hinder?
Torches for lost loves who will never return?
Carrying around all this excess can clutter the path to the true you and possibly lose yourself.
Time to do some house soul cleaning and get rid of those things or persons that no longer serve a meaningful purpose in your life.
Your mind, body and soul will thank you for it.
Does your soul carry such a habit as well?
Friendships that are no longer a help but a hinder?
Torches for lost loves who will never return?
Carrying around all this excess can clutter the path to the true you and possibly lose yourself.
Time to do some house soul cleaning and get rid of those things or persons that no longer serve a meaningful purpose in your life.
Your mind, body and soul will thank you for it.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
February 7, 2009-The Gratefulness of Ungratefulness
The funny thing about people expecting what they haven't worked for, but thinking that all is owed to them, when they haven't even worked for what they are expecting.
The expectations to live, pay taxes and die should seem simple enough but yet it amazes me that some choose to complicate such simplicity.
I mean death or paying taxes isn't on many people's list of things to do but it is an inevitable circumstance that we must face by having life.
If you work hard then sometimes the rewards are more than one can expect but if you don't work at all or at least try and still expect a reward, would that make sense?
We are living in a time where people are loosing jobs, homes, cars, and family members who can't accept reality and yet some are ungrateful to have a job and a means to provide for themselves or their family.
So what if the little perks have to be taken away.
It is better than to have the bigger perk taken away where everyday you are wondering how you are gonna make it and take care of you and/or your family.
The gratefulness of ungratefulness is that one day your ungratefulness will blind you of the gratefulness you already have.
Then you will look back on the times when you should have been grateful for even the simple things of life like living, paying taxes, and eventually dying.
Death is the inevitable circumstance we must face for being granted the gift of life.
Not that it was our choice to come into the world so it will not be our choice to leave this world, but being grateful for what you have is better than ungrateful for what you don't.
The expectations to live, pay taxes and die should seem simple enough but yet it amazes me that some choose to complicate such simplicity.
I mean death or paying taxes isn't on many people's list of things to do but it is an inevitable circumstance that we must face by having life.
If you work hard then sometimes the rewards are more than one can expect but if you don't work at all or at least try and still expect a reward, would that make sense?
We are living in a time where people are loosing jobs, homes, cars, and family members who can't accept reality and yet some are ungrateful to have a job and a means to provide for themselves or their family.
So what if the little perks have to be taken away.
It is better than to have the bigger perk taken away where everyday you are wondering how you are gonna make it and take care of you and/or your family.
The gratefulness of ungratefulness is that one day your ungratefulness will blind you of the gratefulness you already have.
Then you will look back on the times when you should have been grateful for even the simple things of life like living, paying taxes, and eventually dying.
Death is the inevitable circumstance we must face for being granted the gift of life.
Not that it was our choice to come into the world so it will not be our choice to leave this world, but being grateful for what you have is better than ungrateful for what you don't.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
February 3, 2009
Haven't posted in a couple of days! Trying to decide what to write and if it'll be worth writing. I have an idea I wanna try but not quite sure if I can pull it off! Only if I could spend my days n nights writing, my soul would be even more content but ofcourse my stomach wouldn't be seeing as how I'd be without steady income for food and other things! I guess I could always land a gig that would pay me to write! Um don't see that happening anytime soon! Guess I'll go work on my idea!
Friday, January 30, 2009
January 30, 2009 The Escape
Thoughts of you fill my head
Even after avoiding them at all cost
I try to comprehend the possibility of you and me but
Somehow it doesn't seem right
Then again when I hear your voice
My heart gets stirred up again
So everytime that phone rings
I pray and hope you aren't on the other end
Time allows me to escape my feelings for you
I wonder if you know and try to maintain
Your position in my world
I hope with every new day
You'd no longer be a thought taking up space
That day hasn't come
As for now time will be my escape from hearing your voice
Emotions flooding back in
Making my soul burn
With desire for you
Even after avoiding them at all cost
I try to comprehend the possibility of you and me but
Somehow it doesn't seem right
Then again when I hear your voice
My heart gets stirred up again
So everytime that phone rings
I pray and hope you aren't on the other end
Time allows me to escape my feelings for you
I wonder if you know and try to maintain
Your position in my world
I hope with every new day
You'd no longer be a thought taking up space
That day hasn't come
As for now time will be my escape from hearing your voice
Emotions flooding back in
Making my soul burn
With desire for you
Thursday, January 29, 2009
January 29, 2009
Out of all the BB apps, I am still quite impressed with Slacker radio! I can't now imagine life without it. Get all kinds of wonderful music with endless possibilities. Listening to Sade's Lover's Rock! Nice mellow way to start my morning. I may jus sign up 4 the paid version.
It's good to always have a person you can talk to when things get crazy. Because of some events that have taken place because of a person's need to be selfish and unconcerned for others, I have gained a friend to replace the one I lost. Sometimes life throws a curve ball and you just gotta know when to hit. The last couple of days have been a learning experience. I am sure I will have many more.
It's good to always have a person you can talk to when things get crazy. Because of some events that have taken place because of a person's need to be selfish and unconcerned for others, I have gained a friend to replace the one I lost. Sometimes life throws a curve ball and you just gotta know when to hit. The last couple of days have been a learning experience. I am sure I will have many more.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
January 28, 2009~Heartache
My heart feels heavy not quite sure why
Thought I wouldn't care if you walked out my life
Figured I'd be better off anyway
Still a part of me feels sadness when I realize I'll never look at you the same
You can't play games with people's emotions and think there'll be no repercussions
My heart will ache for a bit but funny how time heals all wounds
Never imagined you'd do me this way
Laugh and smile in my face all the while doing the same to someone else
Thinkin you slick and u can't get caught
Bet now you wish you would have thought twice
Playing with fire will get you burned
My heart will ache but time will eventually take it away
One day you'll awake and realize all that you've desired is what you already had
Now it's only too late to get it all back
Somehow we always reap what we sow
Thought I wouldn't care if you walked out my life
Figured I'd be better off anyway
Still a part of me feels sadness when I realize I'll never look at you the same
You can't play games with people's emotions and think there'll be no repercussions
My heart will ache for a bit but funny how time heals all wounds
Never imagined you'd do me this way
Laugh and smile in my face all the while doing the same to someone else
Thinkin you slick and u can't get caught
Bet now you wish you would have thought twice
Playing with fire will get you burned
My heart will ache but time will eventually take it away
One day you'll awake and realize all that you've desired is what you already had
Now it's only too late to get it all back
Somehow we always reap what we sow
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
January 27, 2009~When the light comes on!
You've done all you can to prove your heart's desires
Then again was it what they desired as well
You've made the calls
Gave it your all
But still it seems as if it doesn't matter
So you try again a little bit harder
Then one day without so much as a notice
The light comes on and you say "Forget this"
Why keep giving if there is no receiving in return
Why put yourself out there if you constantly get burned
That is when the light comes on
And so you give that very ultimatum and hope that it will change the situation
Only to realize that it still won't matter
Cause the light hasn't come on for the latter
Then again was it what they desired as well
You've made the calls
Gave it your all
But still it seems as if it doesn't matter
So you try again a little bit harder
Then one day without so much as a notice
The light comes on and you say "Forget this"
Why keep giving if there is no receiving in return
Why put yourself out there if you constantly get burned
That is when the light comes on
And so you give that very ultimatum and hope that it will change the situation
Only to realize that it still won't matter
Cause the light hasn't come on for the latter
Friday, January 23, 2009
More Poetry Pieces!
~The First Time~
I opened the door
He smiled at me
That nervous kinda smile
I smiled back at him
That “don’t worry” kinda smile
He asked about the candles
The music in the back ground
Breaking the ice
So he could feel comfortable
He took off his shoes
Just my minor request
Had a seat on my couch
Rubbed his palms together
Trying to hide the sweat
I sat beside him
Asked about the drive all this way
Not much traffic was all he could say
As he looked deep into my eyes
Wondering if I was sure about this
I assured him I was
Asked if he needed a drink
That would be nice
But water would do just fine
I returned, water in hand
He drank fast
Told him to slow down
I wasn’t going anywhere
He apologized…asked for another glass
I smiled “thirsty huh?”
He just smiled back
I returned once again with water in hand
This time he drank slowly not
Taking his eyes off me
The ice had been broken
He was no longer nervous
He sat down the glass
Told me to have a seat
The way he looked at me made me wet
Sweat began to trickle down my back and nothing hadn’t happen yet
He moved in closer
My heart beat faster
His lips touched mine
My heart beat faster
His hands reached for mine
My heart beat faster
He stood me up
Wrapped his hands around my waist
Asked me to dance
My heart almost leaped out of my chest
We slowly danced as I watched our shadows on the wall
He kissed me again
This time with more passion
I could see fire in his eyes
He was ready to put it out
And I would be the quencher
He took my hand lead me to the bedroom
More candles
Music still in the background
He smiled
“All this just for me?”
I smiled
He knew the answer
Slowly he kissed me
Undressed me
Asked me to walk around
Wanted to admire me in the candle light
I felt shy
Almost embarrassed
“First time for everything” was all he could say
I just smiled and sat down on the bed
He came sat beside me
I began to undress him
Asked him to let me admire him
He said that wouldn’t be necessary
I’d have plenty of time to do that
He took my face in his hands
Asked me again
I assured him I was ready
Time for our paths to cross
His fire began to fill me
Passion boiling over
So many late night conversations
Now reality had taken place
He moaned, I groaned
He called out my name
As I took him in farther
He spoke about the way my lips felt
How my tongue made him melt
He hadn’t known how long I’ve been wanting to
Feel him inside my mouth
He felt himself get closer to the end so I stopped
Then started all over again
He pulled me up to him
Said it was my turn
His tongue found all of my places
Even the one’s hidden so far and deep away
I moaned, called out his name
He said how sweet I tasted and how he could stay there all night
I wanted to feel him inside of me
Wanted to know how long it would take
For him to bring me to pure ecstasy
We were face to face
Him on top of me
I underneath
I could feel him as he made his way
We danced a dance I had never danced before
I looked deep into his eyes with every thrust
Flipped him over so I could ride rough
Never taking my eyes off him
Pure ecstasy was written on his face as he and I
Began to explode
I felt myself fall on top of him
He kissed my lips, my eyes, my forehead
Spoke of how great he felt
Held me tight
Fell asleep for the night
As I laid there looking into his sleeping eyes
Wondering how many more times
My name would cross his lips
In a fit of passion
He must have read my mind
“This definitely is not our last time”
He smiled at me
That nervous kinda smile
I smiled back at him
That “don’t worry” kinda smile
He asked about the candles
The music in the back ground
Breaking the ice
So he could feel comfortable
He took off his shoes
Just my minor request
Had a seat on my couch
Rubbed his palms together
Trying to hide the sweat
I sat beside him
Asked about the drive all this way
Not much traffic was all he could say
As he looked deep into my eyes
Wondering if I was sure about this
I assured him I was
Asked if he needed a drink
That would be nice
But water would do just fine
I returned, water in hand
He drank fast
Told him to slow down
I wasn’t going anywhere
He apologized…asked for another glass
I smiled “thirsty huh?”
He just smiled back
I returned once again with water in hand
This time he drank slowly not
Taking his eyes off me
The ice had been broken
He was no longer nervous
He sat down the glass
Told me to have a seat
The way he looked at me made me wet
Sweat began to trickle down my back and nothing hadn’t happen yet
He moved in closer
My heart beat faster
His lips touched mine
My heart beat faster
His hands reached for mine
My heart beat faster
He stood me up
Wrapped his hands around my waist
Asked me to dance
My heart almost leaped out of my chest
We slowly danced as I watched our shadows on the wall
He kissed me again
This time with more passion
I could see fire in his eyes
He was ready to put it out
And I would be the quencher
He took my hand lead me to the bedroom
More candles
Music still in the background
He smiled
“All this just for me?”
I smiled
He knew the answer
Slowly he kissed me
Undressed me
Asked me to walk around
Wanted to admire me in the candle light
I felt shy
Almost embarrassed
“First time for everything” was all he could say
I just smiled and sat down on the bed
He came sat beside me
I began to undress him
Asked him to let me admire him
He said that wouldn’t be necessary
I’d have plenty of time to do that
He took my face in his hands
Asked me again
I assured him I was ready
Time for our paths to cross
His fire began to fill me
Passion boiling over
So many late night conversations
Now reality had taken place
He moaned, I groaned
He called out my name
As I took him in farther
He spoke about the way my lips felt
How my tongue made him melt
He hadn’t known how long I’ve been wanting to
Feel him inside my mouth
He felt himself get closer to the end so I stopped
Then started all over again
He pulled me up to him
Said it was my turn
His tongue found all of my places
Even the one’s hidden so far and deep away
I moaned, called out his name
He said how sweet I tasted and how he could stay there all night
I wanted to feel him inside of me
Wanted to know how long it would take
For him to bring me to pure ecstasy
We were face to face
Him on top of me
I underneath
I could feel him as he made his way
We danced a dance I had never danced before
I looked deep into his eyes with every thrust
Flipped him over so I could ride rough
Never taking my eyes off him
Pure ecstasy was written on his face as he and I
Began to explode
I felt myself fall on top of him
He kissed my lips, my eyes, my forehead
Spoke of how great he felt
Held me tight
Fell asleep for the night
As I laid there looking into his sleeping eyes
Wondering how many more times
My name would cross his lips
In a fit of passion
He must have read my mind
“This definitely is not our last time”
Simple
I am simple
Not hard to please
Complicated confuses me
Constrains who I really am
I cannot change how I feel
No matter how I try
If I could completely walk away
From you
I would
You take up space that
You don't deserve
I haven't figured out how
To make you disappear
It subsides for only a moment
Then I look into your face
or hear your voice
And everything that I have
pushed away
comes rushing back
It overwhelms me
And for the life of me
I can't
figure out why
It's not meant to be
Not meant to be more than what it is
But still passion burns that
only yearns for you
Many words are inspired
for one who doesn't deserve
to experience what I hold inside
Not hard to please
Complicated confuses me
Constrains who I really am
I cannot change how I feel
No matter how I try
If I could completely walk away
From you
I would
You take up space that
You don't deserve
I haven't figured out how
To make you disappear
It subsides for only a moment
Then I look into your face
or hear your voice
And everything that I have
pushed away
comes rushing back
It overwhelms me
And for the life of me
I can't
figure out why
It's not meant to be
Not meant to be more than what it is
But still passion burns that
only yearns for you
Many words are inspired
for one who doesn't deserve
to experience what I hold inside
January 23, 2009
I swear work and Winter are taking a toll on me and I cannot wait until Spring arrives. Funny thing today I realize I miss paper and pen. The feeling I get when I put ink to paper and create something so wonderful from my heart and soul. Sometimes it's good to do things ol' skool style so we don't miss out on the little things. Sometimes technology can make me lazy but if I am true to myself then the natural way things are suppose to be will always resurface.
I heard that D'Angelo is going on tour and working on a new album. I have been wondering about where he has been but am very much looking forward to his new album.
I heard that D'Angelo is going on tour and working on a new album. I have been wondering about where he has been but am very much looking forward to his new album.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
In Honor Of Mr. President!
Today we will embark on a historic change that will forever change the lives of not only African Americans but of all nationalities! Has our past predicted this? Did we ever think that in this lifetime we would have a Black President? He is a man of great magnitude and persona. When you see him, hear him, listen to him it makes you stand at attention! His charisma makes you want to get to know him and follow what it is he has to say. Nothing about today is ordinary! Unlike any other inauguration this one is special and significant and will be remembered for all time.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Side Note #1
Normally I don't do this but it seems unfair to keep to myself although it's possible that many may already know! Slacker for Blackberry is quite nice and totally awesome! I downloaded it about an hour ago and am quite pleased with it! The interface is slick and user friendly! You can type in an artist name and it'll play that artist as well as songs that pretty much go along with that category. You can also check out the many other preset stations if you want variety! You can't quite pick songs you'd like to hear as far as I can tell but for me the variety alone is enough to keep me happy and possibly discover even more music to add to my growing collection. My ears love almost everything! Slacker will become a permanent icon on my home screen and get used quite often! May not even need to bring the iTouch along for awhile! If you're interested go to http://m.slacker.com/ from your BlackBerry and enter Music Nirvana @ your own risk!
~Soulgroovy~
~Soulgroovy~
Sunday, January 18, 2009
January 18, 2009-The give and the take
I've missed a couple of days again mostly cause I was pretty exhausted from work. I am back now and ready for a little writing.
There are people in your life that are givers and takers. I consider myself a giver mostly and sometimes I give too much. I have people in my life who take but never give. At first I don't notice because my need to give clouds my judgement but then after awhile I realize that it's not always 50/50. Even after realizing that it's not 50/50, I still continue to give and realize that in most instances that is how it'll always be. It's the way my heart is designed no matter how much I try to deny it. In retrospect it's always better to give than to receive and that works for me!
There are people in your life that are givers and takers. I consider myself a giver mostly and sometimes I give too much. I have people in my life who take but never give. At first I don't notice because my need to give clouds my judgement but then after awhile I realize that it's not always 50/50. Even after realizing that it's not 50/50, I still continue to give and realize that in most instances that is how it'll always be. It's the way my heart is designed no matter how much I try to deny it. In retrospect it's always better to give than to receive and that works for me!
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