Thursday, August 6, 2009

Thoughts


While reading on the train this morning I came across a paragraph that touched me in an unexpected way. "Man was created with the woman hidden in his being. God then skillfully brings out of him that hidden part called woman. She was taken "out of him." Her removal left a void and this creates man's attraction for her. She was the softer side of him. She was his tenderness, and those emotions he couldn't share. She was the tears that would not fall, the passion he didn't allow himself to feel, and the trembling compassion that he could never express. When he makes love to her, he is actually embracing the softer side of himself. He is holding all that he is unable to say in his arms and loving it, touching it, stroking the part of his being that wishes it could be held, and if he is wise, he does it with all his strength. Tenderness, sensuality, and passion erupt when he has the knowledge that he is somehow making love to the softer side of himself." I never thought of the creation of woman in this sense. Thing is it doesn't seem like men and women embrace this theory now a days. We are so afraid to show our true selves or even our softer sides because we don't want to get hurt. Don't want to be taken advantage of, so we hide behind this shield hoping that no one can penetrate it enough to expose our vulnerabilities. How long does a person have to go on like this whether it be man or woman. Should the wall be made from brick that it would take a jack hammer to break through. Speaking for myself, I don't mind my independence but I would rather have some dependence on a man who has God in his ♥​ and love in his ♥​ than to think I can provide that all on my own. Granted it has to be in me in order for it to be recognized but I am not opposed to expressing or desiring that from a man. Of course this is how I felt the passage related to me and others may view it differently. No matter what experiences I've had or will have dealing with the opposite sex, it will never stop me from believing in love!

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Why


I wanna run from the way he makes me feel
I'm not quite in control of my emotions
When it comes to him
And I wonder if he knows it
I feel so strongly for him but my fear of being hurt
Prevents me from opening up all the way
He knows some of my feelings
But the depth of them is still unknown
How is it possible that we connect in such a way
But yet have our souls become as one
He is the other part of me
The part I feel God has destined for me
But fear still lives within me
How can I say with such certainty that you are the better part of me
When there are so many roads we have yet to travel
Still I feel as if my life would be missing a great part without you
It's the truth and no matter how many times I've tried to escape it
Fate has a way of making me realize it
So why does so much time pass me by
When I could be with this or that guy
All I really want is you
And no one else will do
I can't wait forever to see the future
There comes a time when
Moving on may be better
The reality is the same
But it'd be a shame to lose you
Not ever knowing what it's like to be with you
Really be with you
It's funny how all this time has passed
And I've traveled some paths
That didn't include you
And I hate to have future journeys without you
Uncertain of the next step
Not sure if I should push further
Or leave well enough alone
But life must go on with or without you
Only you can now reveal the truth
Reveal to me what I need to do
To find myself closer to you
Tomorrow is not promised
And I can't wait forever
But I'm willing
To embark on a journey
That includes you
I promise to be gentle
Take care of your ♥​
It was always my intentions from the start
But you have to be willing to let me in
Find a place where we can began
And build on this chance that God has given us
Maybe I speak out of place
Or not in my turn
But I know what my ♥​ tells me
I know that fire that burns in my soul
Is only for you
So now it's your turn
To tell me
What you're gonna do