Randomness

It is not in my best interest to ignore what my heart consistently feels. For two years I have struggled with this addiction...this addiction of love. In some instances it may not seem like a bad thing especially when it hasn't had many negative results. This addiction has forced me to realize some things about myself both positive and negative. It has forced me to release, relate and reveal my inner most thoughts. At one point I was willing to give up on love and all the things that go along with it. My heart wouldn't allow me to do so. It leads me to believe that there is more to this than lust and infatuation. Those type of emotions don't last this long. This is a deep rooted appreciation that has yet to wavier. With my consistent perseverance, things are starting to come around. As they say something worth having doesn't always come easy and if it does, why would you want to have it anyway. Now I openly, completely embrace all the emotions I am feeling whether they are positive or negative. This choice has made things so much better for me and clear. As time goes on and I continue to grow, a positive attitude with an optimistic disposition will help me not only get through the rough times but breeze right through the good times. Guess that means this is an addiction I don't need a 12 Step program for.

HeartSpeak

This is the moment
Early in the A.M.
When my mind and
♥​
Decide to have a conversation
My ♥​ is the open vessel
Taking in
Letting out
But continually
Pressing on
My mind
The stern one
Trying to guide my ♥​
In her path
My ♥​
Well she's free spirited
My mind
Well she's more reserved
She isn't so thrilled with some of the direction
My ♥​ has taken her
She wants the ♥​ to be more reserved
Not worry about feeling anything
My ♥​, ha she laughs in my mind's face
"You can't tame me," she says
My mind reminds her of pain we've felt
My ♥​ comes back with
"We got over it well"
Yet my mind still believes
If the ♥​ would only listen to me
We'd never, ever feel a thing
My ♥​ couldn't survive
Couldn't sustain its existence
She'd shrivel up, dry out
And then where would that leave us
My soul
Tries to remain neutral
Allow my mind and my ♥​
To come to their own
Equal decision
But this time and as times before
She intervenes
Imparts her wisdom
And reminds them of how we all need to
Work together
The ♥​ feels
The mind debates
The soul guides
Without working together
We'll cease to exist
So we must each play our own
Separate part
As life unfolds
And work together
When one of us can't
Handle it alone
My ♥​
My mind
Accept their command
Even decide to shake hands
The soul is content
For she knows
They both are open to
Continually grow