January 1, 2009

Love. It seems like a simple word but somehow is complicated. Many of us desire it, need it, have it, want it, or run from it. Sometimes I find myself running from it but still desiring it but not quite sure how to always maintain it. When it comes to family and close friends, I have no problem but when it comes to the opposite sex well "Houston we have a problem"! You'd think by now I'd have it all figured out and know exactly but seeing as how I'm constantly evolving and discovering new things about myself, the idea of it changes. I guess in someways that's a part of life but it's something I very much desire so I am gonna work harder at not running from it. Not expecting others to fill in the voids that I have created myself and not filled in. To not be afraid when it is staring me right in the face. To be more open, honest, and sincere of my needs and desires. I only live once so why not live life to it's fullest potential and let love be my guide! I want to visit New York this year and somehow I wanna make that happen! My birthday would be an ideal time but it's kind of close to Fall and I'd like to experience New York in the summer. I'm gonna work on that! Simplicity is another one of my resolutions that I will try to work on. Every day I will write something. It may be long or short but I will stick with my writing.