But God Needed Him Most

There are days that I still get misty eyed
That my heart aches
That I can't understand why
God needed him more than I
Yes time has passed by
But it hasn't made my missing him any less
There are moments when I forget
But then reality sets in 
And once again I realize that God needed him most
I don't know if it'll ever go away
But a small part of me died that day
When God decided his job "Well Done, my Good and Faithful servant". 
I am being selfish I guess
It was suppose to only be for a little while that his presence
embraced my life
I have known him my entire lifetime
This void, not an easy cross to bear
But God needed him most
And mistakes he does not make
Just wasn't quite prepared
To lose the first man I ever loved
Who's seen me at my worst
Praised me at my best
Never loved me any less
When my choices didn't fit his
Or when I made mistakes
But God needed him most
Although my heart still aches
And I miss him so
I know that God's got him
And when that time comes
I will see him again
But God needed him most